O The Deep Deep Love of Jesus...

O the deep, deep love of Jesus, vast, unmeasured, boundless, free!
Rolling as a mighty ocean in its fullness over me!
Underneath me, all around me, is the current of Thy love
Leading onward, leading homeward to Thy glorious rest above!

O the deep, deep love of Jesus, spread His praise from shore to shore!
How He loveth, ever loveth, changeth never, nevermore!
How He watches over His loved ones, died to call them all His own;
How for them He intercedeth, watcheth over them from the throne!

O the deep, deep love of Jesus, 'tis a heaven of heavens to me
And it lifts me up to glory, for it lifts me up to Thee!

I felt a familiar struggle welling in my soul this week as Good Friday approached. Knowing all that Jesus has done for us makes Easter a joyous celebration but first, for me, it means going through Good Friday and pondering WHAT He did for me-I do not want to just get through it by brushing it off, and if I don't(brush it off) then that means I tend to approach it with a hesitation because it means acknowledging how desperate I am for His salvation and forgiveness and that He suffered because of me.

This year has been the most difficult year spiritually that I can remember. So, as I began to get the kids ready for our Good Friday service tonight, the war waging this year was right there on the surface. I wanted to go, but my mind was cluttered, so I was unsure of what to expect and with all five of the kiddos next to me and Matt serving, I thought I would probably just get through. But tonight, the Lord met me just where I was at, He quieted Noah's spirit(my 3 year old busy little boy)- he was asleep within minutes of us sitting down, he slept the entire service cuddled up on my chest, giving me the chance to soak in the time of worship. By the time the service ended, instead of being ready to go, I found myself wanting to stay in my Father's house-deeply full of gratitude for this place to worship. And I saw tonight how precious I was to Him-He gave rest to my soul and mind and I was able to clearly speak to Him. Thank you Jesus for your rest. Thank you for your sacrifice.