A Masterpiece to Cherish...

This past year has been a difficult year physically. I have not shared much outside of a few close friends and even then health issues were a mystery and difficult to figure out let alone explain. So after more struggle these past few days, a string of Drs appointments begin tomorrow for me. The first being an EKG and 24 hour Holt monitor to determine what has been going on with my heart these past 6 months. Part of me hoping they find something to explain this year, but also hoping it is not serious at the same time. Life has been so "stop and go" for me- working hard when I am feeling well because there is no telling how long that will last, which also means the same for the kiddos and Matt. I went through it again yesterday and today. We had been to church in the morning, I was great, spent the afternoon outside in the back yard and smack! It hit me like a truck in the middle of working in the garden. I was doubled over in pain within a few minutes and it has taken me all of today to recoup from it. Well tonight Matt helped me run the errands I needed to. I wasn't sure I could do the driving and all the walking, so he was my comfort and help. With his help, I accomplished what needed to be done. We even managed to slip in our Monday night dinner out together which I hate missing now that our kiddos are getting older and it is difficult to find time to talk and be alone together. When we returned home, I found this beautiful masterpiece in my room. It had been made by my daughter madison after she had put the younger kiddos to bed.

It read...

Dear Momma,

I could travel the entire world,

top to bottom,

core to crust,

ground to heavens,

and not find a greater mom than you.

I love you, get well soon.

Now I am far from the perfect mom,

and struggle so often

and the older the kiddos get, the more I know they see my flaws,

but oh how I treasure things such as this that is so not deserved!

I have learned from difficult pregnancies and the inability to care for my kiddos the way I wanted to during them, that the Lord has a plan for each of us and will not leave us during those hard times. We will get through and will do our best to make the most out of it. And my children will grow and have joy even when mama is not 100%.